Reality has hit me. I am just about to turn 30 in a few months and am officially the heaviest I have ever been (not counting pregnancy, thank goodness!). No, I wouldn’t say I’m super overweight, but I will say that the way I have been living will not lead to a happy ending.
I blame my current weight on my daughter. 😉 When I was pregnant, I was unable to complete the 2nd gestational diabetes test (after not passing the first one). That sugar drink just couldn’t stay down! (Yes, I am quite scarred!) Because they were not sure if I had it or not, I was put on the no-fun-gestational-diabetes diet. It was a frustrating time for me. I wanted to eat an entire watermelon, but could only have 1 cup. I wanted to stuff my face with chocolate, but could only have it in VERY tiny amounts. NOT FUN!
The good part about it was that I literally fit in my old jeans DAYS after returning home from the hospital. Once the swelling went down, I quickly returned to my pre-pregnancy weight, no problem. That was fun!
I fed my baby breastmilk (from pumping and eventually nursing). I had heard about women who lost a ton of weight when nursing and soon became one of them. I ate whatever I wanted and the weight just kept falling off. Soon, I was 15 pounds lighter than I was when I got pregnant, that’s 30 pounds lighter than my max pregnancy weight. It was so awesome! Everything fit me, everything looked good on me, all without any effort.
One I stopped nursing, the honeymoon was over. Slowly the weight came back. Now I’m 10 pounds over where I would like to be. Major bummer. I know why I’m this weight.
- I love chocolate.
- I love carbs.
- I am an emotional eater.
- It’s been an emotional year.
- I have zero discipline.
- I exercise inconsistently.
So here I am, almost 30, needing to lose about 10 pounds. More importantly, I need to develop some self-discipline! A few days ago, I sat down with my Bible and looked for some verses to help me see what God has to say about this situation. Here is what I learned.
1. Proverbs 12:1 Whoever loves discipline loves knowledge, but whoever hates correction is stupid.
I’ll admit, I’ve been quite stupid for some time now. Time to get smart and embrace discipline! It takes discipline to get up early and workout. It takes discipline to say no to a brownie. It takes discipline to drink 8 glasses of water each day. I pray God helps me learn to LOVE discipline!
2. Hebrews 12:11 No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.
Seriously. It’s so tough for me to turn down chocolate. It really is almost painful. I just love it so much! It’s instant happiness! This love makes it hard to have a normal, okay amount in one sitting. I go crazy! 3 brownies later…I’m feeling gross and guilty. The problem is it’s a temporary happiness I feel. It’s not doing me any good in the long run. I pray I think about what I will be gaining (health, confidence, energy) when I am disciplined, rather than being sad about what I am missing out on.
3. Proverbs 31:17 She sets about her work vigorously; her arms are strong for her tasks.
Ugh. That darn Proverbs 31 lady. She does everything AND has nice arms? This verse has become more meaningful as I get older. We need to be strong so we can do what we are called to do. I injured my neck a year ago and was USELESS. Talk about not being able to do what I felt called to do. I need to strengthen my back so that I don’t hurt it picking up my 2 year old! I need to get in shape so I can keep up with her without getting winded. I need to eat better so that I am healthy and around for as long as God wants me to be! I pray I can strengthen my body to do whatever God wants me to do.
4. 1 Corinthians 10:31 So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God.
God gave me this amazingly wonderful and, thankfully, healthy body, despite the garbage I put in it. Is that giving glory to God? It’s like getting a beautiful top for your birthday and using it to do yard work in! I thank God for my body and pray I can use it to please Him, not just my tastebuds!
5. Philippians 4:13 I can do all this through him who gives me strength.
Can I get an Amen? It seems impossible to be healthy, especially during busy, stressful times. We can’t do it alone and thankfully we don’t have to! I pray God gives me the strength it takes to live a healthy life, despite all that is against me.
These are just a few of the many verses in the Bible about self-discipline and how God thinks we should treat our bodies. Forget about getting skinny. I want to be a healthy, strong 30 year old who is taking care of the body God gave me! Who’s with me?!